My plan was to run 13 races in 2013. It started off great. I ran a 1/2 marathon, 2 10k’s, 10 miler, and a few 5k’s. I was on a tear. I placed 3 in my age group in a 10k race. I was making it happen. I knew I was going to do it, I could feel it. I even signed up for Run or Dye. Just to have a fun run, a race that was not timed. With each new race, I was on course to accomplishing my goal. Running felt good, it was my therapy. When I was sad, I ran. When I was stressed, I ran. When I was happy, I ran. I started feeling stronger, faster, happier.
I was hoping to PR a few races. I wanted to RUN a half marathon without walking, my second 10 miler under 1:25, and a 5k less than 27 minutes. Goals that are reasonable, achievable, realistic. I planned on training to get the results I wanted. I knew it would be hard work and I planned on putting in the effort and time to get it. I was determined.
I was involved in 2 car accidents in the span of 2 months. One I was sideswiped and the other rear-ended. They have wreaked havoc on my back. I have bulging discs. I am seeing a chiropractor, a physical therapist, a masseuse, and personal trainer that specializes in strengthening the injured areas along with my doctor, neurologist, pain management specialist and it feels like I’m forgetting a person or 20!
I went and saw the doctor yesterday and I told him I had a few races to run in October and November and his response was “You will not be running any time soon.” In all honesty, I was deflated. I didn’t expect to run but I didn’t expect to hear those either. I knew I was not able to run, but the doctor made it sound so permanent. It took a moment for those words to sink in…YOU WILL NOT BE RUNNING FOR A WHILE. I was starting to feel depressed and I immediately stopped. It was not permanent, it was “for a while”. I need to heal which means I have to practice patience.
I will run, just not right now. It will give my time to focus on my last 2 classes, my boys and my job. Plus he didn’t say that I couldn’t be on the sidelines cheering my fellow runners on. I can cheer and encourage, I can walk for exercise and I can volunteer at races. I WILL RUN again, I just know it.